Category: Uncategorized

Ego Is A Vampire

I have no interest in defending the identity of the chronically ill. Illness has a way of strengthening identity because anything that threatens your existence tends to make your ego do push ups. But strengthening the “I’m sick” identity will not facilitate healing. Here… Continue Reading “Ego Is A Vampire”

Celebrating a fallen MCS queen

Environmental illness can be challenging in a way that is hard for others to relate to. Especially when one becomes reactive to the ubiquitous chemicals in modern life, there is a terrifying loss of safe spaces, over and over. This is traumatizing. When people… Continue Reading “Celebrating a fallen MCS queen”

The Big Picture

First, it is important to remember that none of this is personal. Although it feels personal because it is affecting you and your family, a huge process is unfolding that no one person has control over. The trajectory of human history is still only… Continue Reading “The Big Picture”

The Gift of Chronic Illness

Imagine a happily married person who comes home one day to find that their beloved spouse has disappeared, emptied their house and swept all the bank accounts clean without even saying goodbye. Imagine that moment of sickening realization, when everything they had thought was… Continue Reading “The Gift of Chronic Illness”


Last month, in January 2021, five years after I got sick, I had this conversation with my dad; Dad: “I wasn’t always sure you were going to make it, if I’m being honest.” Me: “Yeah, I wasn’t sure either. But the fact that we… Continue Reading “Breakthroughs”

My Book Review of The Sensitives by Oliver Broudy

Oliver Broudy’s new book is part travelogue and part history lesson, with a splash of epistemology. “How do we know what we know?” and “why are we so damn sure?” Broudy is an agnostic, healthy, science-minded freelance writer who just got curious enough to… Continue Reading “My Book Review of The Sensitives by Oliver Broudy”

Decon Pro-Tips from a Bubble Girl

Lots of my older friends and my parents are now having to contend with a new fear of the microbial world due to the Coronavirus pandemic. Having lived for years myself with decontamination protocols that have been necessary because of an impaired immune system,… Continue Reading “Decon Pro-Tips from a Bubble Girl”

The Collapse of Safe Space

Yesterday I went to the center where I meet with my spiritual community every Sunday. This has been a place of exquisite refuge for me. I have built each week around having the energy and resources to get here because it has become so… Continue Reading “The Collapse of Safe Space”

Reversing Cognitive Decline

A some point, after relinquishing control over the direction my life was going, I was brought to this place. It’s a clean place, an old adobe guesthouse that I am able to live inside. After being forced to camp over two high desert winters,… Continue Reading “Reversing Cognitive Decline”

The Return

I have been back in Maine almost four months now. I was describing it to Stevan yesterday as feeling like being on a prolonged SCUBA dive. Apart from the dramatic physical and emotional ups and downs, it feels like I am constantly under pressure–… Continue Reading “The Return”

The Importance of the Clean-Break

When practicing an extreme-avoidance-protocol, mastering the art of the “clean-break” can offer crucial boosts in your healing. When detoxifying from an environmental illness, your body can go through a phase of hyper-reactivity where tinier and tinier amounts of environmental toxins can initiate a large… Continue Reading “The Importance of the Clean-Break”

Illness as a Path to Awakening

“An illness has enormous capacity to pull you into greater unconsciousness and it has an even greater capacity to awaken you.”                —-Eckhart Tolle When I was 45 years old, my life burned to the ground. I became… Continue Reading “Illness as a Path to Awakening”

Things That Have Helped Me

  Hiring a coach to get started on the mold sabbatical. Sara Riley Mattson, the author of Camp Like a Girl, was the role model who made me believe I could take my life back. Finding mentors and allies in person and limiting my… Continue Reading “Things That Have Helped Me”

Retraining the Brain

I have been assiduously following mold avoidance, and it is clearly crucial. However, I am still hyper-reactive long after I have finished detoxing from the initial toxic overload. It’s time to start researching which of the brain retaining programs I am going to delve… Continue Reading “Retraining the Brain”

Resources for Healing

A nutritional approach is crucial. Detoxification is often impaired at the time of some toxic exposure. Everyone’s presentation seems to be quite individual, yet clean, wholesome food is a universal need. Many people deal with an impaired intestinal lining, or “Leaky Gut Syndrome.” It’s… Continue Reading “Resources for Healing”

Love’s Not Time’s Fool

Two people are compatible when what they consider to be “real” overlaps substantially. But of course that mental concept of reality can warp and bend over a lifetime, since it has, itself, only a relative truth to it. Some ideas, like future, can implode… Continue Reading “Love’s Not Time’s Fool”

Whatever it Takes

You might notice that your body can become as unreasonable as a newborn baby. Do newborns care if you were sleeping? No. Do they retract their demands if you are sick yourself and haven’t slept for three days? No, they don’t. Even a healthy… Continue Reading “Whatever it Takes”

Coming to Grips with CIRS Diagnosis

Getting a diagnosis of CIRS can be beyond overwhelming. There is no other diagnosis that brings with it such relief that you finally know what it is and how to fix it, followed by the slow, sickening waves of realization about how devastating “the… Continue Reading “Coming to Grips with CIRS Diagnosis”

Mold Avoidance 101

The point of mold avoidance is to remove something you can’t see, smell or taste, but you can still feel it. There are colonies, spores, toxins and super-toxins. It helps to find a way to understand them and conceptualize them in order to contain… Continue Reading “Mold Avoidance 101”

The Toolkit

There is a toolkit of products and strategies that we use to remove spores and toxins from our belongings. Before getting started, let’s remember some basics.   Colonies make spores. Spores make toxins. Toxins suck. Spores are willing to move along peacably, but if… Continue Reading “The Toolkit”